Kim mentioned something in a past blog about 'overthinking' things. I am like that, too. For example, when I sign on and check my blog for comments, etc., I see my life neatly packaged with all the cute pics, and the stories about my day and I wonder if it's hypocritical. Oh, not that all of it isn't TRUE, but it's only a part of what I am like, and what my life is like. I don't have pictures of the yucky parts, you know? And I guess that's normal and that's okay. I just want to strive for authenticity in my life. And I want to be able to be a blessing to others along the way, too.
Tonight, I began re-reading a book my Papaw gave us several years ago. It's the "Imitation of Christ" by Thomas 'a Kempis (1380-1471). This book is phenomenally convicting, and may be part of the reason for the serious tone of this blog (!), but I did want to share part of it that I particularly found to ring true. Chapter 3 is worth quoting in its entirety, but I will refrain! It is entitled "On the Teaching of Truth". He says, "What harms and hinders you more than the undisciplined passions of your own heart? Who has a fiercer struggle than he who strives to conquer himself? Yet this must be our chief concern-to conquer self, and by daily growing stronger than self, to advance in holiness."
My biggest struggle has always been self-discipline, and though I conquer it more with time, it is still such a battle! And I have a big job to do, leading 4 little ones to God. It's a task I can't afford to fail.
Well, anyway, it's not like I have to tell you all that I'm not perfect. Most of you know me way too well to buy that! But somehow that's comforting to me. That means you're really my friends. And I am really yours. I still plan to post cute pics and share what's on my mind. But I just felt like I needed get all this off my chest first.
I feel a song coming on..... Stevie Wonder melody......'that's what blogs are for'....through good times and bad times'....!!!
That has to be a sign that it's time to close!